Editor Note / Feb 2018
I realized that I have slowly drifted away from the sketchbook approach Smile Heart Love was initially based on. Originally, I meant for this to be a place where I practiced and tried different things or wrote about practicing or trying different things all around subjects that I loved or made me smile (hence the name smile heart love). Over six years I started to treat the work here more as a subset to my portfolio (which lives over at naomiyamada.com). People would mention my blog always before mentioning my portfolio. I have been hired because of imagery I posted here, so slowly I became very picky about what I posted. By picky I mean I put a lot of work into the images and thought a lot about the subject matter. This is all great and I enjoyed that process very very much but as a mom of a baby it is not sustainable.
It has been difficult to admit to myself that I cannot keep that up. It has obviously slowed down the frequency in which I post because I spend too much time thinking about the subject and then the workflow for the shooting, post production and blog post construction is very lengthy. Then, I get discouraged that I am so sloooooow and that slows me down even more. Right now I spend a majority of my former working hours enjoying motherhood. My work projects have changed, some of my clients have changed and the amount of time I have for my personal blog has changed. I need to embrace that and re-align my methods.
Motherhood has made me re-think many things in life. In all areas: work, colleages, social life, personal time, professional enrichment, social media, exercise, wardrobe, make up, nutrition and so on. In regards to this blog, for now I have decided it will not feel as 'finished' or 'polished' because I am minimizing my workflow process so I can be more nimble and open to exploring. I want to be playful with the creative process and remove the self constraint of thinking it must look a certain way in order to be shared.
I am inspired by many blogs, magazines, instagram accounts where the work is very thoughtful and finished. I wish I could be like them. Maybe one day I will, but right now I am going through a growing phase where I will post more raw content, more iPhone photos (so I can skip the whole post production process), I will post work I do not necessarily think is great, even good because my priority is to be making and sharing without the highly self editing process. I am not sure how this will unfold, or if I can keep this up but I want to give it a go. I hesitate because I know I will be judged, but hey I am judged anyway. Sometimes you just need to change it up and that's what I am doing.
I hope you will return so you can see the difference. Hopefully, there is a noticeable difference. I would love to hear your thoughts on this, ideas or suggestions.
Thank you for reading this x